Life is too long to waste
Name: Ove Henrik Kåven
Year of birth: 1976
Place of birth: Hammerfest, Norway
Hometown: Karasjok, Norway
Profession: Software Engineer
Interests (major): Computer games, Computer programming, Dancing, Judo, Reflecting over life
Interests (minor): Bicycling, Drawing, Rollerskating, Travelling, Writing
Professional resume (Curriculum vitae)
I don't spend much time maintaining my professional resume. But if you want one,
you can see the most recent revision here: resume.pdf.
I also have a LinkedIn profile.
The purpose of my writing is neither bragging nor griping.
I do not need your sympathy, recognition, attention, or respect.
The point is only to allow anyone who might be genuinely interested in knowing me, if any,
to better understand why I've become what I am. I'm also only covering
major events here, many relevant details are left out for brevity.
I grew up in the tiny town of Karasjok, where I never really fit in. During my school years,
I could never keep any friends (taking collateral damage from all the bullying I was
subject to was more than any of them could handle). So, eventually, I learned to live without.
(I'll spare you the details.)
School itself was also too easy and boring to me, so I've grown quite good at just
sitting alone and let my thoughts wander all over the place. I liked imagining things, coming
up with ideas, drawing and writing, building Lego, and often just trying to solve
interesting-looking problems. That's also how I started my career with computers; very
early (age 10 or so), I found that in order to solve almost any problem with a computer,
I just had to write appropriate programs, and so I did.
At age 14, some of the problems I solved were already interesting to others. And with
the motivation of breaking a monopoly that was being exploited, I wrote a competing
piece of commercial software (drivers and utilities for writing the Sami language).
It was a success, and the previous monopolist went bankrupt.
I don't think I quite understood back then. It felt too easy, and a bit unreal.
All I had really wanted was a decent challenge... was this when I also truly began to
wonder what I am?
In high school, the trend continued, although my attitude had changed a lot.
I was now uninterested in making friends, but still liked to solve problems,
and it was here I began looking into fixing myself. Among other things, in trying to
solve my previous lack of discipline in learning the Sami language, I wrote a dictionary
system with built-in grammatical inflection rules. I just did it to help myself learn, but then
people saw that it would cover a real need, and suddenly it was sold commercially,
along with my previous driver software. (That wasn't as planned for me;
suddenly, my time was spent improving the program for commercial use,
instead of actually using it to learn the language properly.
Although the experience gave me an advantage that allowed me to score well
in the final exam, I still have only basic knowledge of the language today.)
Though I had a decent job at Arctic Net
(which I had myself been part of founding as an ISP during the early Internet boom,
but that eventually fused with two other companies and became something else),
I soon began wishing for something more, I needed new, fresh challenges.
I decided to try attending university. So, in 1999, I was admitted to
University of Oslo, where I planned to
study natural sciences (primarily physics).
Living in the big city of Oslo was quite different from the tiny town of Karasjok.
While it offered me many more opportunities, and was a nice place (to the extent
Oslo can be called nice), and I eventually bought an apartment there, it still
never quite became a home for me. By 2001, I had also begun working full-time
for TransGaming Technologies,
and no longer had any interest in continuing my university studies.
During 2002-2004, I cohabited with my then-girlfriend, and we acquired a few cats,
which we got to have lots of fun with. Unfortunately, the relationship didn't work out,
and we broke up amiably (but I still miss the cats). It had been a turbulent relationship
where I had mostly lost my own identity, but it was still a sad decision to make.
I've always felt bad that I couldn't find my place by her side.
But in the end, I needed to rebuild an identity of my own, to become who
I wanted to be.
There was no reason to stay in Oslo anymore, so in late 2004 I moved to
Ottawa, Canada, where I worked for TransGaming at their offices. As time passed,
I kept pursuing some dreams of mine, trying to find some peace of mind
in my new home. I tried many new things, even learned to dance.
I have many fond memories from those years, and many people I'd like to see
again, but ultimately, I failed my quest for peace of mind.
Eventually, late 2007, I was burnt out.
All those years had turned TransGaming into a corporate juggernaut,
it was no longer the idealistic upstart I once joined, and I couldn't motivate
myself enough to continue my employment.
So I returned to Norway, where I've set out to take everything I've learned
about myself and life in general so far, and puzzle together who I really am,
what I am capable of, and where in the world I might fit in.
I've moved to Tromsø, where I've begun studying Computer Science
at the University of Tromsø,
though not with much enthusiasm. I just figure that since that's what
I'm best at (and prospects for computer scientists are generally very
good in our high-tech society), I may as well start with that, though I just
can't see myself stuck with that for the rest of my life.
In part to finance my studies, I've also gotten a new job, working with
satellite imagery for Kongsberg Spacetec.
I'm also still spending some time trying to improve myself
(which is quite a big job, I guess).
My dream is to have a job where I learn new things, see the world,
and get to do good things for people. (For example a job at UN.)
Still have to figure out what kind of job like that I'd be good at.
But perhaps even more, I wish for a dream I've had all my life:
somewhere to belong. And I think that it's not so much a physical place,
as a place where heart and mind will meet.
Perhaps there, and there only, romantic thoughts and ideals might ascend
as the sun descends, and the beauty, harmony, and mystery of life
may enthrall me, with a simplicity I've never seen before.
Knowing me, it won't be easy...